Just something i threw together this morning
i have been incredibly down lately. Some combination of factors has lead me to feeling unmotivated and tired, even though my life is objectively amazing. i have multiple partners who love me deeply, am in an extremely fulfilling kink relationship, and work from home for far more money than i need at a job i really enjoy.
Yet, i am sad. Fuck me.
i’m switching therapists this week. Maybe that sort of System Shock (2) will help me understand how to get out of this funk.
This morning i opened up Ableton and told myself i was going to make something. i used to make a lot of songs in notation software like Sibelius, but have wanted to understand how to produce EDM for a long time… every time i tried, though, it felt impossible to wrap my head around. Today, i decided to just… make something extremely simple. It sounds childish and silly, but… i actually did it, and it’s pretty listenable. i think that’s progress.